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چرا همیشه فکر میکردم که یک مادر به محض در آغوش کشیدن طفل تازه به دنیا آمدهاش به سمت شادی و شادمانی خیز بر میدارد؟ چرا هیچکس نگفت که به هنکام خیز برداشتن و شادی و شادمانی، ممکن است سرم به سقف بخورد و تا مدتها گیج و منگ باشم؟ چرا هیچکس نگفت که گذر از دالان بهشت به این راحتی نیست؟ چرا هیچکس نگفت که برای مادر شدن با پیلههای سفت و سخت را پاره کرد و با دو بال فرشته پرواز کرد؟ چرا فکر میکردم که امروز میتوانم طفلی را به دنیا بیاورم و فردا هم چون گذشته، به زندگیم ادامه دهم، بدون اینکه در افکار و رفتار و عقاید و باورها دو روش زندگیم تغییری بدهم؟
Product Description **An acclaimed Turkish novelist's personal account of balancing a writer's life with a mother's life. ** After the birth of her first child in 2006, Turkish writer Elif Shafek suffered from postpartum depression that triggered a profound personal crisis. Infused with guilt, anxiety, and bewilderment about whether she could ever be a good mother, Shafak stopped writing and lost her faith in words altogether. In this elegantly written memoir, she retraces her journey from free-spirited, nomadic artist to dedicated by emotionally wrought mother. Identifying a constantly bickering harem of women who live inside of her, each with her own characteristics-the cynical intellectual, the goal-oriented go-getter, the practical-rational, the spiritual, the maternal, and the lustful-she craves harmony, or at least a unifying identity. As she intersperses her own experience with the lives of prominent authors such as Sylvia Plath, Virginia Woolf, Alice Walker, Ayn Rand, and Zelda Fitzgerald, Shafak looks for a solution to the inherent conflict between artistic creation and responsible parenting. With searing emotional honesty and an incisive examination of cultural mores within patriarchal societies, Shafak has rendered an important work about literature, motherhood, and spiritual well-being. About the Author **Elif Shafak** was born in France in 1971 and now divides her time between London and Istanbul. Her books have been translated into more than thirty languages. Her novels include *The Bastard of Istanbul* and *The Forty Rules of Love*. Her writing has appeared in the *Los Angeles Times, The Washington Post,* and *The New York Times*, and she has also been featured on NPR. Visit elifshafak.com